black boy.. black boy
why must you do his to yourself
playing the game of life
like its just a waste of time
you were created to be
someone of truth and a king
stop lettin others live for you
and get you down the wrong
roooooooad.
black boy
my black boy
please look urself in the mirror
cant you see your hurting me
by living in negativity
you are worth so much more
the to be jus a nother nigga in the streets
please when will you realize
that u were made to be a
kiiiiiinnnng.............
created to be so much more
than another statistic...
black boy...my black boys
please grow up to be black men
we need you
yes we need you
so please i pray you understand
i will never put you down
i want u to alway be around
too many of you behind bars
for playing the wrong game
black boy
my black boys
please lift up your heads
when will u understand..
that life is what u make it
come on and take my hands
i can lead you to you truth
of being a real grown man
it hurts me when u hurt you and your brothers..
dont put them down no... cuz we need to help each other
oh please... when will understand
that life is what u make it...
black boy
my black boys

A passionate night between me and you
I can't begin to tell you the things I want to do.
First we can dim the lights and get closer.....
No, wait, that's too fast, let's go back
and move a little slower.

I'll kiss your lips that are so soft and sweet,
then move on to your cheek that's so smooth and unique.
Then I'll move right along that little ear of yours...
Whoa... my, my... let me move along your chest...
Uh, oh I missed a spot, let me move back up to the neck
As I move my tounge around and around
you start to feel it as I go down slowly
and as I kiss your chest your hands go up
...but I'm not finished yet....

Oh, I just wake up to realize it's a dream !
A passionate dream fueled by my Deep Passionate Kissess for you.

A strong, black, Nubian queen, yea that's me,
Yet the wounds of my heart are so deep, my heart still continues to bleed
I never imagined this would happen to me, no not me the queen
Because I am the guardian of my temple and I hold the key to my own heart
So I thought..

Until love captured my soul and took me on a serious journey
Yea, I was floating on cloud nine.
He wined, dined and made me feel like .....all the time in the world with him was all mine.
We shared intimate secrets about our lives as we lay in each other arms and made love all night.
His kisses and his touch were so intense I yearned to feel his presence near me.
My body would tremble with every stroke ...yes he was fulfilling all my needs

This man had my heart and now he was holding the key
He told me I was his only lover but little did I know that he was
cheating with another.
I always heard love was blind but somewhere in the midst of my journey
I must have closed my eyes.
How could this happen to me, not this Nubian queen.
Yea, he said I'm sorry I 'll never do it again but it was too late my heart was broken this had to end.

troubling thoughts
interference with who I am to be.
Who I am called to be in this life.
looking b4 the mirror in front... of... me
confused at what it is i see.
almost a stranger cuz i fell to
the way side.
almost wasted my life
cuz i was living it full of pride..
too much to say i apologize.
the things i thought. the things i said
hurt was felt but it was all misread
so i stand here in from of this mirror of truth
figuring out...
contemplating all that i have been through
as i shut out the noise
and i began to concentrate
the pain that i was feeling
all seemed to be being erased
erased from my sight
vision clearer in my eyes
realizing that I am His.
and it is he who drew this smile on my face
I am not here to please him, him. her or them...
but do my Father's will
"Let Your Will be done in My life"
for he has not given me the spirit of fear.
so why am I fearful... to be who I am..
Real.
the real me.. the real me who He would have me to be
my mind is yet open
so i got this plan to set free
opening up...
and living this life.
not keeping it to myself
cuz my light is so bright.
no longer will fear paralyze me...
cuz He told me...

niggas... aint worth a damn...now if u are male and u read this and happen to get offended then i am talkin to u. cuz u see urself as a nigga and not a man. nuff said..
back to what i was saying.. niggas aint worth a damn... they dont keep they word, u cant count on them to do right... they play mind games.. they aint doing shyt with they life. niggas.. ive dealt with them my whole life. ive dated a few.. slept with a few. loved one or two. hmmm. i loved me a nigga. yeah and i loved him good and strong.. but him being a nigga.. i didnt realize he could never be my man. didnt know the definition of a friend.. but i was a girl bac then.. and didnt know the difference between a nigga.. and a man. cuz see the niggas ive dealt with... deal with.. dont take are of they responsibilities.. tell lie after lie.. and always end up beggin on they knees.. ooooh baby please dont leave.. i love... i need. nigga please.. back that bullshit away from me.for now as I have grown up.. i place.. i see myself as a queen. boo.. I am that royalty...and nigga.. u dont deserve... me

Me, myself and I
thats all I got
I just found out.
tired of all the lies
and attitudes
i feel so used
but im no longer gonna cry
cuz it aint worth my tears
no more, no more, no more, no more,
no more no more
i gotta move on
and about onwith my life
jus
me myself and I
who do i turn to when i feel like the world
is on my shoulders
me
myself,
and I
the friends i thought I had
welll..
hmmph
the man I thought I had
well.
hmmph
gone
yes they are
all gone...
and Im ok wth that
i gotta move on and on and on.....
Me Myself and I
thats all I got
I just found out
tired of all the lies
oh well I gotta move on
maybe time will change
who knows
but i dont care...
this day im gonna declare
that all i got is
me myself and i.

Peace

you made me smile
sending the sorrows felt in my heart to the water
drenching them in laughter
and easing them with a smile
thankful for the everlasting smile
in my earth
my being
feeling
like everything is gonna be alright
with just this smile implanted on my face.
calmin my spirit with ease.
im feeling free
special. and i can breathe
with this smile that u gave me
and I thank you.
:)

call... my... name
i wanna hear u call..my name
say it loud and proud
like u really mean it
like u really feel it
make me feel like u feel when u say it
give me that tingling feeling
as you pronounce each
and ev-er-ry syllable...
say it.. meeaaan it.
really feeeeeeel it
call....my...name...
speak it with heart
passion...
let the sound of you voice
and my name
set me on fire
cuz i like it when u say it like that
it sends this vibrant feeling all over my body
it makes my pinky toe curl
makes me bite my bottom lip
and get that look.
in my eye
that you like
call... call.. my name
call...my name..
and make me feel like u want me with an
ur-gen-cy...
hmm
and i will be there quickly
but i wont come too quickly
just in time for you...
to miss me but feel me
closely to you...
so baby..jus...
call...
my....
name.

I shall shine the light that
will illuminate the path you choose.

Your task is to travel happily
the journey will not be easy
but the steps you take will
not be burdened with weight
that you can not carry.

When you grow weary
know that I am here
still lighting the way till
you reach your destination.

I am everywhere even in the
lowest of places for that is
where I am needed most.

Fear not, want not, for the light
shines brightest in the dark.

Who am I? What am I?
I am the prayer that you prayed
long before this journey.

Continue to call, use me and
the way that you go shall be
bright.

Gods, I greet you here on the banks of Mother in the time of NOW. First, I shall pour libation, oh ancestors thank you for bringing me here. I am here because of you all. Your invitation traveled far and wide through my blood line from Tamare or what many like to call Kemet or Egypt to NOW. I have a mission as do we all. I have seen enough to know that our problem is not unique. The time is now to remember my, your our greatness. We were robed of our land and our culture, and look what we have become, what MOTHER has become. She cries out every day, ....do you hear? The time is now to use our minds, open our eyes and see all, with three, form your pyramid. The saying is that the revolution will not be televised ...do YOU know what that REALLY means....are you a part of that mission. The time is NOW (2008)...how far have we come since 1712, is Willie still talking?

I am so in love with him.... the God incarnate I feel was created for me. He is my air, I am divinely blessed to know him.... Kush....

Ode to Kush….

As you entered into my soul…
My flesh quivered and of you took hold…
Trembling and shivering as you flowed…
In and Outward…
Making me fly…
Taking me high…
-er….
Cloud nine…
Past comparable pleaaaasures…
I explore my mind to find…

None exists though…
My first experience of bliss, is this…. sooo…
I’m drowning in this mo…..ment….
Submerged in our flow’s scent
Giving you my innocence…
I’m cognizant….
Knowing the effects on me you’d create
The next move I impatiently anticipate

I-can’t-wait-for
You-to-captivate-me-more
Conciliate-my-mental-core

Free me, Release me…..From these

Pangs and desires
Relinquish my fire
Passion from you I require
My being is yours to devour
Spirit is yours to enrapture
I’m a prisoner within your capture
Willing to adapt your….

Ways…
I could get lost in you for days….
Become your personal slave…
I’m amazed…
‘Tis true love
Not a lustful phase

I’m genuinely mesmerized…

petals open wider
soft sweet whet with appetite
for more
for thickness
for deeper
for richer
for nicer
reaching for higher
and taking every dewdrop in
opening
for more
i hear the music wrapping new streams of sound
to my silence
She plants a new seed for every open pore
in my supple skin
Mama Earth befriends me so divinely
this love is so decadent
i cannot be selfish with Her
i share the water through the Sista Wit
i grow from rich soil and plentiful root
Sprit
Soul
Mind
Heart
Body
all in sync with God in Me
you feel her?
you see her?
she walking with you
crying with you
dancing with you
furrowing her brown too
on the same mission
from beginning
may this journey
never
ever
end.
release. ommmmmmm. release.

YOU SIATAS KICKED IT OFF I FEEL LIKE I'M AT A POETRY SLAM LOL I THINK THAT IT WOULD GREAT TO ONE NIGHT JUST POST ALOT OF POETRY AND WE ALL SIT BACK AND WATCH AND ENJOY. THEN WE CAN COMMENT I WISH THERE WAS A CHAT ON HERE THAT;LL BE DOPE.

"AINT A CEILING"

"THE THICKNESS"

I'm loving this space. This is a beautiful space for sisters of color to internalize the true beauty that we are and will become. With inspiration and motivation from our earthy sisters. Many of us searching to find ourselves. Some of us looking to renew ourselves. And there are those of us looking to  bond, inspire, aspire, and learn the true meaning of sisterhood from like minded sisters or begin to know what we can become.

Peace

Copyright 2007

The struggle of an out of the box independent soldier allowin no one to control her fights tooth and nail to expel the influence of a union that exceeds on the scale of zero and wants to be my hero nigga and niggarette please I cease to imagination your state of being is not truly seen even under the lens of a telescope fuck u mean yo shit is dope. smoke blowin out sha ass living fast and digging ur self deeper, u avoid the silence of ur creeper humbleness being the abomination to ur ego side. always with a set of rules that we must abide so u can be the rebellious one but see I peep yo shit I peep the dagger u keep in yo back pocket, I peep the book of lies u keep in the closet. the loose wire hanger u keep near the socket.

petals open wider
soft sweet whet with appetite
for more
for thickness
for deeper
for richer
for nicer
reaching for higher
and taking every dewdrop in
opening
for more
i hear the music wrapping new streams of sound
to my silence
She plants a new seed for every open pore
in my supple skin
Mama Earth befriends me so divinely
this love is so decadent
i cannot be selfish with Her
i share the water through the Sista Wit
i grow from rich soil and plentiful root
Sprit
Soul
Mind
Heart
Body
all in sync with God in Me
you feel her?
you see her?
she walking with you
crying with you
dancing with you
furrowing her brown too
on the same mission
from beginning
may this journey
never
ever
end.

release. ommmmmmm. release.

I am not here to break you
I will not slash you with my tongue
It is my duty to be there when you have challenges you have to overcome
I will not be let you be a sperm donor
No brother
I will not reduce you significance to a concept held by a plantation owner
I will not accept another baby daddy with no sense of responsibility riding in a souped up caddie
I will help you grow into a father
Be all you can be
Even though your dad was not much of a martyr
I will not let you continue to go to jail
Gavels hitting benches sound like black males for sale
I will not feed into the down low conspiracy
It feels like a plot to build more blocks between you and me
You see what I’m trying to say is
I cant give up on you
Not just because we share the same hue
but because our spirits our from the same place
Our dna connected to create a whole entire race
In the beginning it was me and you
I Auset and you Ausar
Brother
You are a shining star
I know you may have your doubts because I’ve failed you in the past
but we're both victims
our short comings don’t have very much contrast
So like I said before
I am not here to break you

1810

You left a woman
Head high full of pride, dreams, and aspirations
Confident in your sexuality
You left Saartjie Baartman

You were fooled like the ancestors before you
Promised notoriety, riches, and jewels
Instead you became a specimen analyzed and poked with their tools
Those things that culturally defined your beauty in their eyes became a sin
Dignity gone you longed for home
But how could you return

1814

You were renamed
Treated like a wild beast not given the right to speak
Your keeper placed you in a cage and you were trained to move upon command
So ashamed you turned to drinking to help you stand
You became Venus Hottentot

They broke you
To survive you sold yourself sexually
Alcohol the most tangible way you could flee the confines of your reality

You left January 1, 1816
But even in death there was no peace
You to them were nothing more than property
Exploited in life and further in death
They carved out your genitalia
Pickled and placed it on display
They had your body cast in wax so it would not decay

March 6, 2002
You left Venus Hottentot behind and became Saartjie Baartman once again

Black…the definition, "Lacking hue and brightness; absorbing light without reflecting any of the rays composing it."

One who fears the dark may read this and see all the negative ugliness that can be, but I am here to tell you that the meaning is skewed for I know Black even though it’s gotten a bad rap.

The lack of hue is self reflection an inward meditation in preparation for growth.

Absorbing light is the consumption of knowledge hence the saying, “You’re so bright.”

Reflecting the rays of light can be boastful instead let the light shine through you by the works that you do.

With this new point of view you can see that black is me
and that is beautiful!!

http://www.authorsden.com/goldeneagle

Dedication to my Shango-Oshun Warrior who knows how to love with passion and sweetness...

You sometimes ask me if I love you
At times you honestly want an answer
Other times you want assurance
Here is the definitive answer about my love for you....

I love you like Afrikans love a tight drumbeat
I love you like Harriet loved freedom
I love you like Malcolm loved internal & external revolution
I love you like Ruby loves Ossie
I love you like Afrikans love bright colors
I love you like Grandma loves to feed others
I love you like Africans love to flip a style
I love you like Miles loved jazz
I love you like Bob loved Haile Selassie
I love you like Afrikans love self-adornment
I love you like Zumbi loved Palmares
I love you like ancestors loved future generations
I love you like Obatala loves cleanliness
I love you like Ogun loves work
I love you like Oshun loves love
I love you the only way I know how
I love you as deeply as Afrikan woman loved their men before me
Timelessly
Completely
Soulfully
Divinely
and above all
My love for you is without comparison

Lounge with me…
Vibe with me…
Stay with me…
Touch me…
Kiss me…
Caress me…
Tell me…
That you…
Want me…
To lounge with you…
Vibe with you…
Stay with you…
Touch you…
Kiss you…
Caress you…
Until you are certain that, there is no other place you want to be
Other than right here living, loving and breathing with me

You are safe to close your eyes and dream with me
And in our dreams you and me intertwine to become we
Where our love is free
Trust, honesty and peace is what our love be

I want to heal your heart by making you apart…
Of my world

Oooooo weeeeeeeee!
I love the way this cat makes me feel
Where did you come from because I swear we know each other
Maybe in a past life like badu crooned
Or maybe under that same orange moon
Or maybe taking a long walk somewhere in philly in late june
Or lounging on a Bajan beach listen to Richie spice tunes
Or was it in Houston during the summer while savoring honey dew
I don’t know where it was but I do know that I have a love jones for you
So much so that my body responds to the mere thought of you

How can this be in such a short time you and me
Are contemplating things that require a “we”
When we don’t know what tomorrow will bring
You said want to toss up a ring
To me? Maybe we’ll see…
Yet we still dream and while holding each other’s hand
Make long-term plans

I don’t know where this path is going to take us
But I do like the thought of it being Just US
Growing not falling in love
Learning to be gentle with our honesty shoves
Vowing from the start to take care of one another’s hearts

Yes, maybe it was in a past lifetime like badu crooned
Or under some orange moon

Butterfly kisses that gently touch my spirit

Love so pure and authentic that I can feel it

No matter how many miles of ocean are in between

I taste honey from the mere thought of you

The wind whispers in my ear and tells me your dreams

Tempting me to leave…

Unite with you and create a love space of “we”

-Original Poem

In order not to forget my native language I decided to start writing poetry. The poetry is mostly inspired by things that happen in the Surinam-community both home and abroad.

I am so tired of people abusing our heritage to slack off in life. Everything that happens to them is "takru sani" bad things that other people have "put" on them never taking accountability for their own actions. Every weekend they go to a "prei" (ritual gathering where people use musical instruments to call unto the gods and winti's ) calling on Mama Aisa (Mother earth) to help them and save them.

Yere Mi

yere mi
archi mi

yu taki dat na soso lobi
soso lobi gi mama aisa
prodo koto nanga anisa
dansi singi begi
"mama aisa yu mu yere wi"

noiti denki dat na aladei libi
aladei libi e sori lobi
taigi mi dat me lei
tagi mi dati yu denki mama aisa alla den dei

yere mi
achri mi

fa yu kan begi a sem mama ye kiri
ala dei ye kiri wan pispisi
noti yu sdon fu denki
fa yu e doti mama
at mama broko eng ati
trowe doti tap mama

yere mi

Thursday, February 28, 2008
THICKER THAN WATER ON SALE 4/1/08

THE BOOK THICKER THAN WATER
WITH A FORWARD BY E. ETHELBERT MILLER
WAS WRITTEN BY THE MARRIED COUPLE OF TWELVE-YEARS
MAWIYAH KAI EL-JAMAH BOMANI
AND NADIR LASANA BOMANI

TWO NEW ORLEANS POETS
WILL BE ON SALE FOR $15.00
APRIL 1, 2008

IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO RESERVE YOUR ADVANCE COPY
EMAIL THE POETS AT mawiyah@bellsouth.net.

http://mamamawiyahbomani.blogspot.com

I seem to have strayed away from you
even though I never left your side
I can still catch a piece of you
entwined
in the gentle blow of the breeze
One word from you calms
the noise of my mind
And I thank you
for always finding your way
back into my heart
back into my soul
back into my very existence
Through melodies uncomplicated by life
or the possibility of tomorrow
Sing sweetly your words of peace
Shower me with your rays of joy
Baptize me in the pureness of your love
Sweet savior take me away
on a note sung in the key of D
Not flat
nor sharp
just natural
As we make sweet music together

To read more musings, visit me on the Web at www.dlcarpenter.com
D.L. Carpenter, 2007

This is so new
Lips freshly kissed by you
Conversations with voluptuous laughs
Laying opposite as my hair sleeps on your calves
I’m playing with your profound toes
They’ve been places, I know
Your fingers rubbing smoothly against the hair on my legs
Authentic is sexy to you, although you wouldn’t mind either way
Sitting up, I glance at your haven in which you’ve invited me
Manufacturing memories of kisses into stories that princesses dream
Turning over and lifting to face me, the dimple in your left cheek simply makes me blink
I keep my eyes shut, blissfully preserving how you smell, feel, most importantly how you think
As I open them, yours are closed, a tear falling, leaving me breathless
I’m wondering what your thoughts are made of, the ones that provide you this happiness
I smile and you do as well,
Your lips part as a treasure chest, only with no secrets to tell
I’m rushing to kiss them as words pour onto my tongue and I swallow them each
Internalizing how much you adore my all, you become wide eyed and reach for me
I can breathe again
Your breath makes my hair float in air as I embrace your ideas in my palms