Peace & Blessings Sisters,
I'm on Day 7 of my 40-day Spiritual Journey. The past seven days have been ... interesting. Each day has brought about its own revelations.
I started this journey with the hopes of fasting. My weak spiritual body didn't make it one day with that High Hope. I also set out to pray a certain number of times each day. Again, being so far from where I hope to be, my ideals are far from my grasp.
Day One, I got so discouraged that I couldn't make the fast that I enjoyed far too much wine. The other days, I ate fried chicken wings like it was my last meal. If someone from Bojangles or the other spots left out my requested hot sauce .... uhmn, it could've gotten ugly.
I didn't and never want to make a mockery of fasting. I need God to work a miracle in my life so that I can breathe again, smile again, laugh again. How ugly is it when you're blessed with all of life's riches and you're still not happy. I am in need of nothing and I know that there are others who would easily trade shoes with me. But, I'm not happy. Am I mocking God? I do not intend to. It's just that somethings missing. I want to BE DELIVERED.
Yet, each day, I feel closer, I feel stronger.
I was reading Malinda William's wedding blog on Essence.com and something she wrote was so in line with my Spirit. She wrote something to the effect of, instead of praying, I decided to be quite and just listen, because after all, there was nothing I was thinking that God didn't already know. I was so inspired. I am so inspired. I'm listening right now.
Something really upset me at work today, and I just stepped back. I realize that, as "The Course In Miracles" teaches, this is just a body with an ego. Whatever upset me, upset the little me. But, the Big Me, The Self, was watching the little me, and knew that it didn't make any difference.
Maybe before ... but now I choose to walk in my Heritage, in my blessedness.
No matter what I thought this journey would be, or would bring, I am intrigued each day to see that the Most High meets me where I am. I am becoming aware that the things before my eyes are not really real but just presented to me for my reaction, for my growth. And, I control me! I control what I say, what I think, what I do...
More than anything, these seven days have taught me, sisters, that it's going to be alright. In all that I have been taught, it is that He didn't bring me this far to leave me!!!
Angels are everywhere, ancestor's spirits are everywhere, positive energy is negative energy turned upside down.
In spite of what you may be facing today ... may peace and blessings go with you and before you and follow you. And, may all things be a light unto your path.
Be Delivered!
I think your doing great!
Enlightenment first starts with awareness and your awareness is obvious, be encouraged chicken wings and all smiless lol! we are here for you Sista
Peace & Grace
Delivered...
Hang in there ;o)
I PRAY for the predators that hunt me.
couldn't have said it better.
well put, saarchi.
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the universe is interested in your success.
you were put here to live in abundance.
your desires are sacred.
thank u soooooo much for
thank u soooooo much for sharing...i too need to listen more and quit talking...i probably will have gotten my revelation or answer if i just take time out to listen...beautiful...
ms. tosh
Keep going...
...take care of yourself, and stay encouraged along this path. Bless you!
Breathe... You are Blessed
May the Most High continue to guide you and lead you to where you are supposed to be. The fact that you have the mind to acknowledge all of this is proof that you are on the right path. Sometimes our enlightment comes in different forms, but it is true to say that the Most High God will always speak to us in ways that we can understand. We are all journeying and learning. You are blessed and all is well.
Much Respect,
LIFE
Even better than alright.....
Peace sis,
Do not be down on yourself for not being where you want to be. Remember, we are always where we are meant to be. And be as gentle, patient, and loving as you can with yourself, especially with the fast. Your spirit will rebel if it's not ready. Growth is a process, and it cannot be rushed. The growth is in the process itself, not in the final destination. And no, it is not a mockery of the Creator to stumble and fall. We just have to pick ourselves up and keep going.
As you continue on these days of your journey, know that it's going to be even better than alright. It's going to be beautiful, sweet, and oh so Divine! Remember there is good to be found in the dark days, too, so bless them as well as the good days.
Peace, love, and light, sis!