Well, I'm happy to say things are looking up. I've been working hard, and praying a lot. I sold a couple of paintings last week, and got 2 pieces accepted into a show at a gallery in Chicago. Me and the mister are working things out, sharing responsibilities and talking a lot more, talking a lot about the future and even marriage, which is lovely in a mind blowing sort of way.
Prayer has been keeping me centered through my full time temp job and other obligations. Even if I've had a crazy day and I'm half asleep, I'll wake myself up to pray for a few minutes. It's nice to take time out of all my secular commitments to honor a spiritual one, and sometimes it's my only moment to myself!
The move is still happening, as in I am being MOVED. Any time I feel sad or scared or panicked, some little sparkly shred of something drops right in my lap saying, "keep going!" Things are opening up in a beautiful way, and that's what helps me keep the faith. Financially, spiritually, socially...the path is being cleared in a way I can hardly believe. So I'll continue to follow my truth.
And so now the lesson it looks like I'm going to be learning this week is how to ask for help. I don't know if it's a Black woman thing (my sisters and I discuss it often) but why is it so hard for us to ask for help or tell others when we're in need? My boyfriend checked me on that one today. I'm making this move and there are things I would like to ask of others, but, I told him, "I don't want to bother anybody." He asked me: "Why are you so afraid to ask for help?" And I didn't have an answer. So in that spirit, I just wanted to put it out there: I'm looking for a room someplace in Brooklyn or Manhattan, if anyone knows of anything, please let me know. And if not, positive vibrations in this direction would help as well :)
I can see a vision of everything working out clear as day. Now the interesting part is how that will actually happen!