Reading folks blogs, articles and posts around here i begin to feel less and less instead of inspired. It's nobody's fault but my own. I read about the women raving about how they feel like a goddess and how they glow and i sit here wishing that i felt the same.
I dont feel sacred nor do i feel feminine. I guess i need some questions thrown to me as to "Why?!". I've read Sacred Woman by Queen Afua only to feel worse off (well, i was encouraged to make waist beads and thats about it). I dont like to ramble in negativity like i'm doing right now. So my question is: How can i feel like a sacred woman? How can i discover and know my worthiness?
thx
KeenaMama if you still are questioning...
I think you find your own worthiness when you continuing being the REAL ESSENCE of you- undefined by anyone else's expectations and ideas and uphold that as being sacred.Keena you a bad mama-really- and I don't give props out frequently but I see you sis. You are a very creative and innovative chick and maybe with those gifts you can weed out your own personal sacredness. But I also think/feel that you are currently in the process of trying to heal some old wounds/skeletons in the closet/pains/tramas/insecurites or I could be wrong but if true, you are already in the middle of shaping your sacredness with your own healing.You know that mastering sacredness and healing doesn't happen overnight and if it does unfortuanatly those wounds can heal but you can always fall, scrap that knee, and damnit you need perioxide and neosporin again.Everyone has their Own level of evolvement.Some sisters can take it there-where they have found some kinda way to actually hop in a spaceship to travel to the real live Moon and have moon rituals on it and some sisters just say a quick prayer in the morning and go on about their daily buisness and they find the beauty in that Girl, I be reading them blogs too and I 'm like damn I wish that was me but at the same time I'm like that isn't ME or MY TRUTH.
My own personal experience -is that at one point I lived my life as the "image" of a Sacred Woman-strict vegan diet, meditating, using crystals,affirmations,African clothed, locs, incense, oils, positive and eccentric people around me, keeping a positive attitude, poetry spitting, rituals, yadi yah.I had a glow, my aura was strong, I was strong.Sacred Woman was my damn bible.Fast forward- a few years later, I have moved out of the mind state due to life circumstances, time, work, laziness and truthfully I 'm living my life thru my shadow right now.You ever heard of your shadow? It's that dark, negative,ugly,grimey side that's a part of us that we try to pretend it doesn't exist but comes out sometimes as a coping or survival mechanism.I 've been beating myself up because I'm not in the conciousness of a 'sacred wombman" anymore and yearning to return to it. But,I have asked myself... is what I really want to be is a " sacred woman" right now for being a sacred woman comes with sacrifice, disipline, determination, and responsibility. Right now, my "shadow" tendices is what I need to to take me to my next level of change and also to show me that I need to accept that part of me that isn't all butterflies,sun salutations, and nameste'.
The ideas and theories of being a Sacred Woman I value you them deep in my core and I think that naturally every woman should strive to obtain that at some level in their lives. Hopefully one day I'll return.Yet, there other facets of myself I'm not willing to give up.. like the fact that I like to drink-get drunk for that matter, and watch pornos- and I got potty mouth, and a real-live bitchy attitude at times, and I get off on reality tv.
So I say all of this is to ask you is a being a sacred woman what you and you really want and need RIGHT NOW? Or are there other challenges and issues that your spirit/mind needs to battle and conquer before you move into that level of existance? What is that you feel is holding you back from feeling sacred?And if you are willing to be a "so called" sacred woman are there the things about the not so pretty Keena that you are willing to give up or let go?Girl... I am no way trying to stray you away from something that I know is going to make a positive impact on your life but I am saying is to keep in mind that it's all about Balance. Balancing Queen Keena Diva with WTF Did Kenna Just Say/Do right now and it being Okay.
Hello Your not Alone
At times I feel the same way you do. You have made the first step in finding out which way to go and finding out what is will make you a scared women. I am not all that great at giving advice but what I can say you are in the perfect place to find your way. I Know you will find your way just enjoy the ride.
thank you sis
thank you sis
prayer
Everyone has some wonderful suggestions, and what I would add is daily prayer. I had some similar feelings a few months ago and I realized that's what was missing. I would pray "in passing", but I realized I needed to create an altar, sit down and pray/meditate or just be in front of it for at least 10 minutes each day. After awhile I came away feeling renewed and more centered in myself. Do you have an altar? if you do, now is a good time to rearrange it, add things to it, whatever feels good to you. But seriously the daily prayer will probably help.
prayer
you're totally right
i dont pray like i used to. i dont meditate like i used to. i'm a christian, so i dont have an altar- however i should create an area in my [small] apt where i can just sit, be still and just concentrate on God.
thank you
I admire your honesty
I admire your honesty. It's natural to have the feeling you have. Not only are we in a society that doesn't support women as sacred, but we are now conditioned to dishonour our femininity. Many of us feel less then sacred on occasion. Feeling that way all the time is a progression and takes years. I'm not there yet either.
My suggestion is to practice something that will heal your mind,spirit and psyche. Have you tried yoga or meditation? Or maybe you can start dancing? or changing you diet?
Sometimes,you just need something to help shift your perspective.
Much Love,
Sa
i dont lie to kick it!! lol
Have you tried yoga or meditation? Or maybe you can start dancing? or changing you diet?
Sometimes,you just need something to help shift your perspective
i have tried yoga and meditation, i need to do it more actively now since i havent been content within.
i have done dancing!! belly dancing, pole dancing, and strip tease! love them all however due to me working 2 jobs and finances i cant do it as often as i desire- but i can still do some of these things at home right?!!? :D
i mos def need to change my eating ways. i'm slowly yet surely doing that.. especially incorporating more veggies.
thx so much sis!
Just Affirm It...
Warm Love Keena!
Wow, the sisters have really offered up some fabulous advice..so I will go ahead and add my little two cents into the Circle too:)...
I totally feel you, because many of times I do not feel sacred enough as well. Sometimes when I am not feeling at my most prideful and sacred, what I tend to do is affirm how I WOULD like to feel with an action, and for me it is usually writing an article or doing a quick project. I think the most important thing is to define what being a Sacred Woman means and feels like, and looks like for YOU. I think you probably already know, so write those things down and surround yourself daily with things, people, and tasks that encourage a Sacred feel. Sometimes I blog about sacred words and feeling good when I am feeling my lowest & I do this as sort of an affirmation and a healing session for my spirit, so SOMETIMES when you read these blogs and articles, and poems about beauty, wisdom, holistics, womanhood, motherhood, and the hapinness and love that circumferences it all, it very well could be driven by confusion, sadness, non-clarity, and so on. Do you get what I am saying? And SOMETIMES we may have felt that way, and after making it through the 'storm" so to speak, we can then offer up clarity with words.
One good way of looking at your sacred level today is to evaluate your creativity. I have read your personal blog, and lady you definitely carry a creative womb, so yes you are already Sacred! because creativity is a sacred gift, but like many of us, it just takes time to transform ourselves to that ultimate Womban that we envision in our minds. The blessing for you and all of us here is that we know what does NOT make us feel sacred and we know how it feels not to feel sacred so the goal is to work on incorporating thoughts & things into your life that make you feel the opposite of non-sacred. Again I cannot stress this enough, when you are not feeling at your best, just affirm it by writing about something or someone that defines how you want to feel. For example, "The Peace of Order" article that I posted up a few days ago...When I wrote that I was feeling cluttered and unorganized(I had not mastered total order in my home at the time I wrote that)...so I wrote out the steps to gain clarity, and then I followed the words that were being said afterwards. Am I making sense, so don't be fooled, every positive statement could be backed and generated by pain/confusion/doubt. So sis, I say all that to say that I feel you and I hope with each visit to ymib you will promise us to affirm your sacred wombanhood...Just affirm it, visualize it, write about it, create something that represents YOUR sacred womban, and it will resonate!
PS: Sacred Woman by Queen Afua: you know, I must say that I think it is important to use this book as more of a formula than a step by step guide so to speak. I personally do not follow all of the instructions to the "T" because it simply does not fit in to my taste or interests, but I think the book offers a perfect formula that you should insert the things that make you feel equally good in the blanks. You know? Like the prayer shawl...instead of making a shawl you could make a really cute skirt or piece of jewelry that makes you feel special when you wear it.
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I have read your personal
<> I have read your personal blog, and lady you definitely carry a creative womb, so yes you are already Sacred! because creativity is a sacred gift,
*blushes* thank you SO much!
i used to do affirmations then i stopped because it wasnt helping me. my therapist made me realize that even with my affirmations i was being unrealistic with it cuz it was so far off. i need to learn how to do lil by lil- thats my problem. i often give up before even trying unfortunately.. but now i know better. i know now to set realistic and tangible goals for myself...
Just affirm it, visualize it, write about it, create something that represents YOUR sacred womban, and it will resonate
good word, thx!
I agree very strongly with
I agree very strongly with your observation. It is an ongoing flow/process, this loving yourself in the feminine form. There are so many distractions and often painful experiences. Even those of us who have been 'on the path' go through periods of disconnect. For myself the creative process does offer a way back into my 'flow' which reconnects me to the Goddess. To be a conduit for this energy is truly a blessing and is very healing for me as I reach out to others. Peace, Liaya
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