This is a poem i wrote after not writing after a long time. enjoy!

Long time passed
Since I spoken, wroten, written, spitten
Never wanting to ask
Because of the choke
So I be hitting my chest
Couldn't cope
With what was in my throat
No Hope
Dazed Eyes
Confused
Verbs Misused
Couldn't Spoke
Correction
Speak
Eat
To Defeat
My Worries
Nightmare Stories
No Ease

Until I blanked out.....

For what seemed a century
Must Find a Remedy
Then it hit me
Coughed up the choke
No remedy
Refused to float
Realization
Letting it Sink into me
Drowning
That Intermission?
Yes I drowning
Taking gulps
Gasping
Never Asking
Taking too much
Until....
I stopped

Floating in the light mist of blue
Water current moving soothing
My body moving through
violently excitedly
passionately exactly
As i should be...
Lasting?
Never but to the shore
Depending on the weather....