Stated from my blog yesterday, I am currently on a prayer mission into Howard University. I find myself worrying to the point where I'm pulling the loose hair out my locs. Like i said i am praying and i know god has something in store for me, even if its not at Howard university. I just would like for things to go right this year, i have been working and not even being able to stop and think about school but this year i made a promise to myself, my mother, and Jesus that i would get back into college, no matter what it may takes. I am striving to make some changes for the better, and i believe an education is more important than money. Now don't get me wrong!!! Financial independence is important but living paycheck to paycheck for the rest of my life is not where its at. I'm 20, so college should be my #1 priority as of now in my life, which is something I ignored at age 17 & 18. Being an adult is about owning up to responsibilities and my responsibility is getting back into College.

Kujikwa si kuanguka,bali ni kwenda mbele.
To stumble is not falling down but it is to go forward. - Swahili Proverb

I came across that proverb when I was seeking a quote or anecdote to insert into my essay to Howard University. Applying to Howard is probably the best but worse things I could do for myself. I say this because I think its a stellar institution but my academic history from high school probably wouldn't help the admissions decision at all. Although I have attended college before, i haven't gained the number credits needed to be considered as an actual transfer student, well according to HU's admissions. I admit, my grades in high school were an eye sore and I deeply regret it. But i can sincerely say that with time and age i have matured from the girl who was so concerned about what my peers were saying about me and letting my grades slip because i gave up so easily. i could now admit that i was the reason for my non success . i am not looking for someone to feel sorry for me on the admissions board. i am just looking for a chance to show the university through my words that even though my secondary record says one thing, I could be more than what that paper says.